Opening the Door
We often believe on some level that we are not to share what is on or in our heart. That who we are authentically is not who people around us will accept. This may be related to something said in passing by someone we did not ever know, an acquaintance, a friend, or a family member. It often is based on our unique perception at the time – how we heard or interpreted the feeling, or the energy of words spoken. Years later we do not recall the who, what, or where the situation took place – yet the story is held deep within our heart, mind, and cells. That one passing phrase becomes imbedded in our DNA - who we are, who we present to the world, and who we claim as part of ourselves. The truth of the matter is that it is who we identify as our self – the person we have accepted.
Many years later, pieces of the story rise through the fog within us to reach the surface of our emotions. Often a very benign, unknown trigger opens the door for a piece to move past the threshold of who we have been to be reviewed as a self-belief. It is then that we can re-clarify whether this belief is something that empowers us, motivates us, that opens the door for us to continue moving forward to our goals – or is it something that holds us back, keeps us feeling stuck in our story. Are we ready to shift and elevate it to be more in sync with the person we are emerging as or acknowledged and accepted for its part in who we were that allowed us to feel safe when on some level we did not feel at ease with being our authentic selves?
Over the past month, the threads within my beliefs have been unraveling to reveal the aspect of myself that was hidden. It could be one word, one sentence in a class, meeting, or guidance in a meditation. Whatever the trigger was the door that was blocked cleared. I began opening and sharing what has long been in my heart and held deeply within my body. As I began to share what experiences, messages, and ideas have been coming through or to me since childhood, amazing opportunities have begun entering my life.
Recently I returned to my childhood hometown in Pennsylvania – all of 500 people lived there when I was growing up. Like many other places, changes have occurred in the landscape of the town. New roads, new buildings, and more construction while keeping that same small hometown feel with two-lane roads surrounded with lush green, farms, and fields of hay. We drove up past our childhood home, which is stained the same deep chocolate brown that it always was and now has white shutters and front door versus the orange-red color they were. The beautiful white birch tree no longer stands in the front yard. The street seemed narrower, the other homes the same amongst more mature yards.
My mother, aunt and I were able to surprise two of my aunts and a great-aunt with a visit during our day-and-a-half of being there. We made the most of our day and nights catching up and providing some much-needed love and support. During my nearly four days in Pennsylvania and Virginia, I experienced two relatives open up about their encounters with past loved ones coming through to connect and I was able to share my experiences with dream visitations, loved ones reaching out in a variety of ways and guidance from angels too. It was such a freeing opportunity for me – I began feeling lighter in many ways. I have also learned that there are several other second- and third- cousins on my maternal grandmother’s side of the family as well.
Only time will tell as to where these new insights will take us or what additional hidden doors will open. It is safe to say that when we are ready – the time is right. We ourselves will know when that step we just took feels very different than any we have taken before.
